I've had a lapse in judgment the last couple days. I've just been tired and wanting to get out of this stupid room so much that I wanted to have Madelyn and get it over with. Today I tried getting of the medication that I've been on and the nurse said that that's not a good idea because I need that to stay here. And two she really isn't ready to come yet.
That really upset me and I cried most of the morning because I was just so fed up with everything. Holger gave me a blessing and the light came back on. Madelyn isn't ready to come. I don't want her to have to be in the NICU for any period of time and be poked and all that she would have to go through. I would also like to have her at home where family and friends are and to be able to just take her home.
We only have a week to go. I can leave next weekend! Hopefully next week goes by fast. It should because we have Christmas and Matthew's birthday to celebrate then we can go home!
9 Days to go!
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Britly - you are so amazing and strong. I really admire you and Madelyn is going to be so lucky to have parents like you and Holger!
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